My adventure into the world of internet dating proved to be as disastrous as the real world of dating.
The guy that I was "talking to" turned out to be a perv. Like, he was young and hot and everything, but I mean, guys should at least pretend to want to get to know you before they decide to pursue a sexual relationship. And, as sexual of a person as I am, blatant sexual pursual, especially online, makes me really uncomfortable. So blah to that.
I am so pissed at myself for obsessing over a guy (Will) that hasn't thought about me in the past two weeks. He is somewhere, far away, living his life, happy with his renewed feelings of love towards his girlfriend. Not thinking about me. And if he is, I am sure the thoughts are those of regret. Or disdain. Or whatever. Nothing good, though.
I have to face it: I am a regret. He is in love and I am a regret. He regrets meeting me, he regrets getting to know me, and most of all, he regrets sleeping with me.
I am a regret. I mean nothing to him.
And of course, I am wasting my time thinking about him like the silly girl I am.
In better news, I got a job interview at Blockbuster tomorrow. I am excited. I hope I get it.
I talked to Jess for the first time in awhile today. Apparently, when she was at a party, she saw this kid we briefly hung out with this summer, Pat. He and I almost hooked up at my party in August. Well, I guess the first thing he asked when he saw her was about me. "Where's Kathy been?" What a weird question, considering I go to a different school than any of my friends. Bizarre kid. Cute, though.
I watched The Hills tonight and heard a really good song by A Fine Frenzy. It's weird, because they opened for Rufus Wainwright this summer and I had no idea who they were, but now I hear their music everywhere. Anyway, the song is called Almost Lovers.
Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick
Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images
No
Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?
[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do